Everyday, recently, I can always be found doing some meditating-kind of act on my bed with sad-ish indonesian song in the background. I just happen to realize that things will change, and im somewhat trying to prepare myself for that. Say bye to highschool-life, welcome uni-life. Everyones seems to be pouring their hearts out to their kids, parents, family and friends nowadays.

I just happen to be one of those people who doesn't express themselves much verbally. Probably this is the reason why i spend a lot of my time lying on the bed with my eyes closed thinking for hours. This is me when my gf is not around because she's my mind. I express myself with actions. When i listen to my parents, i don't try to prove it by saying things but i show it by doing it. When i miss someone or thought of someone while i was away i would buy them at least something just to show it. In a way, i do express myself verbally in the way that when i care for someone, i ask how he/she is, and when i know someone is not okay, i try to make them to talk it out with my ears widely open.

I'm only different to my gf. She's the one i open up to, who took me out of my shell and tell me its safe outside.She practically said "hey, this is my world, show me your world and lets make our own world". Now that we'll be flying off to uk, we wont be seeing each other as much and that is a big change for someone who spends most of his days with his gf. If life was a road, this is part of the road that is a bit crooked where you just need to slow down and be careful to go through it.